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For a moment

I cried in the baby aisle at Target today. All because of a small yellow bath sponge. You know the kind that you can lay your baby on in the bath tub and it gives them a nice little cushion? That kind. Target hasn’t had it for months but I keep looking and today was no different. I threw the diapers in the cart and headed to look down the bath aisle. I stood there and looked at the baby tubs and bath seats and tears welled up in my eyes.

I felt so ridiculous. I was crying because they still don’t have the bath sponge. I was crying because my son is almost two and I’m still searching for an infant product. I was crying because it’s a reminder that another piece of equipment will soon be needed to care for him. I cried because I’m allowed to. Just because I have chosen to embrace our life and always look on the bright side doesn’t mean there aren’t occasional half empty moments.

Is the aisle at Target today I had a half empty moment.

I cried and gave myself permission to do so, but it had to be brief. I told myself it was okay to do, especially when my glass is overflowing so often. I thought about what fills my glass. I wiped my tears and my glass started filling up again. I thought about my new friendships with women that I admire and love. I thought about our boys and how much joy they bring to us. I thought about how complete strangers have found their way into our life and have blessed us big and small. I thought about all of our son’s accomplishments over the last year and felt so much pride. I thought about my amazing family and friends who are so willing to stand next to us on this journey.

I kept thinking of the countless blessings we have had over the last year and suddenly my glass was overflowing again. I felt overjoyed. Who knew a little yellow bath sponge could do all of that?

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Oh, and Amazon sells my little yellow sponge so hopefully there won’t be any more tears at Target anytime soon. 😉

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  • Rebecca

    I have a yellow bath sponge if you want to use it till yours comes. We’re in no hurry for it to come back, so if it doesn’t that’s okay too. 🙂

  • Shawna

    Melissa-
    You are seriously the best mother ever! I cried reading this. I love that little man of yours so much. He makes me smile every time I see a post if him. His smile brightens this world. I love you honey and please know that you are in my prayers every night.

  • Bobbie

    Melissa – you are amazing! What a wonderful moment to share with us. Not wonderful that you cried, but wonderful that in your moment, you captured what each one of us has experienced at one point (or more) in our lives. And, you are right. We, sometimes more than others, have to look a little harder to find those daily blessings to refill our cup. But, yes, they are there! That doesn’t mean, however, that we can’t and won’t have moments where we have a right to be sad. Your title is accurate – you truly are a Special Mom! I hope you and your family have a great weekend!

    Bobbie

  • Amy

    I am also a mom of a boy with special needs (he is now seven and has autism) and I remember crying the entire way home after an ecfe parenting class where a mom was complaining about how she couldn’t get her three year old to brush her teeth appropriately! I know her questions were innocent enough, but the fact that in my world brushing teeth wasn’t even on the radar (I had so many bigger fish to fry) feel comforted in knowing that every moms struggles are different and it’s ok to have difficult days, they simply mean that we are human!

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